the honeymoon is over

    well, my wonderful loading days came and went and today was my first 500 calorie day. i should explain for anyone i haven't told what the loading days are. so the first 2 days you start the injections you take in as much fat as possible (lots of creamy, cheesy, deep fried goodness)if you dont you will spend the first week of the 500 calorie diet really hungry and very cranky, which is what happened to me last time.  i think i did a really good job this time, im pretty sure the big ass slice of vanilla bean cheesecake with fresh strawberries had enough fat in it alone to keep me full all week.
      I got on the scale today and was up almost 4 lbs from my first injection weight and i didnt feel hungry at all today, im so relieved, i was really scarred all week of feeling hungry and depressed but i feel great, it a perfect way to start.  my starting injection weight was 186.8 on sunday morning, and today i reached 190.4. im not upset because i already know that weight gained will be gone in a few days. i gained 3lbs last time and lost it in 3 days.   god i miss peanut butter already, why didnt eat a whole jar yesterday when i had a chance.  So as of tomorrow i should start losing weight and continue to lose weight till 3/24/11, my last injection day. I really hope i drop the full 30 but i may only lose 20 to 25, ive added in 30 min a day of the wii fit and this time im cutting out pickles and the salt flushing so i dont bloat or stall.
      im starting to get a headache, i had a few big ones at the start of my last round, i t will go away but im already so sleepy, its only 9:30 and i can barley get through this blog.  im excited to wake up and weigh in, it will keep me motivated, i also cant wait to get on my wii fit and have it not tell me "thats obese" and the squish my little me into a fatty ball.  i cant wait for this to all be over, now that i enjoy eating healthy i think i miss food even more then before, im not angry at food anymore and im not angry with myself either.   i just want to turn 26 and feel great about myself for the first time, im so close now, may is just around the corner, wiish me luck...