today rocked!

today was a really good day. i got on the scale and was a sweet 169.0. this is major, i was really scared that i wouldn't lose as much this round and i am.. i went to the dr. today and we had a really great talk about how my round is going and asked me if i would be willing to come out and talk to the other women in the program that are struggling.  even though id rather get up and sing in front of 1000 people then give a speech in front of 10 i said yes.  im nervous to talk to these people but i really do want to help if i can.  so i guess in two weeks im going to do this and again on a some saturday mornings.  i really hope that i can be helpful and say everything right. i go blank when im on the spot. wish me luck on that please.  made the discovery that i can have crab today, i dont know why i didnt notice it was an approved meat before but it was such a nice change, 20 days of chicken and beef was getting old.  it was super tasty and way more filling then the other meats but sadly its so spendy i dont think ill be able to eat to much of. 24 days left of 500 calories. if i can lose 19 more and hit 150 i will be blown away. ill only be 15lbs from my goal. i may do a 3rd round after all now that i now they offer a 23 day round of the hgc. i will have to wait till june probably to do it again but the idea of being 135lbs for the 2 hottest months of the year sounds really great to me

more before photos!

 so i know evryone would like to see some of my current photos but my hair is faling out, i cant wear make up or chapstick and my lips are cracked and bleeding and my cheeks are constantly flushed and splotchy so i will be waiting.  hopefully by the end of this month ill have a current photo up but for now im just putting up some oldies. these are more of our beach trip in august. i remember feeling terrible the whole time. i ll never go back to this... i had no idea my ass had become so huge?! and flat, im cool with having a big booty but i want it to be more of a shelf booty then a pancake ass.  oh and i no longer have the lip ring, way to much work taking out for work evryday and i had a really bad reaction trying to gauge my ears no instead of my big beautiful  black 1/2 spirals i now have some tiny little 6 gauge spirals. i think i like the small ones better on me anyway but i really miss my big ones