the downside of weight loss

so i may have forgot to mention that this intense program has some serious drawbacks. the biggest one is the one thats kept me down all day today, its hair loss.  when your body losses a lot of weight rapidly it can make you hair fall out, i know it happens to some women after having a baby as well. im not talking a little, i mean a shit ton (pardon my french) i've lost about a third of my hair. it takes about 2 months to start falling out after the loss so ive been losing it pretty bad since about a month ago and sometime in late april or may it will fall out even more.  i was very lucky to have a lot of hair to start so even now i still have plenty but a lot of women have to get wigs or extensions.  i don't know if ill have to go that far but i can tell im going to have to cut it short, im so not down with myself and short hair but i have to keep reminding myself its worth it.  i guess for 20 or even 30 lbs i maybe would feel different about it but we are talking about 70 to 90 life changing lbs.  if someone had told me that i could magically be 75lbs less but id have to shave my head, i would have done it. its hair, it grows back.... im talking myself down from the ledge.  on top of my hair falling out my skin is drying out so my lips started to crack and bleed yesterday and im all splotchy without my sweet, sweet moisturizer.  i obviously look pretty bad right now.  i miss food, im not hungry at all which is great, today is day 8 of 43 and i've already lost 8.2 lbs. 12lbs if you count the 4 i had to gain on my loading days, so at least i can say that is going great and i can see it already. my arms are looking way slimmer and my boobs look less like the may explode (i was up to a 42FF in october) im so greatfull to have patrick in my life. i know that even if my hair falls out or i have to cut it off he will still love me, if he loved me when i was a crying fat mess he'll love me looking like sinead o'connor. still im scared. i can't wait for this to be over. forgive me if i seem like im avoiding anybody but other then work which i have no choice but to do, i have not interest in going out and being seen. i cant wear makeup or chapstick and im practically bald. i cant wait for march 26th. im going to have apples and penut butter and get my hair did... if there is any left that is. could use some prayers and positive thoughts today, thank you.